seasa kl.

arrived in spore last night.
did not shoot up to expectations, but that was not the main point as i was quite sastisfied with my results. so please bear with the following ramblings..

caught up with many familiar faces. got to know a good deal more. came back with a nasty cough and an oncoming fever. Got the day off today, but i decided to stay at home. got alot of time to think though.

You apologised. yes i accept. you said that it will not do much good, which was also true. But i am glad you finally realised how much it had affected me since 4 years ago. since then, i have always took second priority. you told me i had potential and i believed. yet you did nothing about it. i will not forget those words you said even after i got into seagames. yeah, not much hope for a team medal, but still i was the only woman you coached who qualified. you merely brushed it aside to focused on the guy's team. so congrats to the guy's team with a team bronze and ind silver. if it was someone else i am pretty sure you would not do that. when your shooters moved on, you told me that you finally have the time to focus on me. but then someone else came up and once again i was shifted to the back... fine. i will just wait. but i am tired of waiting... really tired.